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Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Wrestling with God

Holy Spirit dove windowImage by hickory hardscrabble via Flickr
My pastor preached a good sermon Sunday on which questions to ask and answers to seek, and when to simply accept that we're not granted answers (in this life, at least). He based his sermon on Gen. 3, the very familiar passage where Eve and the serpent speak to each other. We all know where this leads, of course.

I couldn't help but think of my own struggles with faith, with God, over my own understanding of Scripture and the world around me. Honestly, there is dissonance, and there is a penchant for questioning even my faith somewhere inside me. It's something I have to live with, the doubts that pervade my mind.

It's hard to accept "no answer" as an answer, given my inquisitive nature and tendency to drill down for meaning. But it can be a fool's errand, and faith is by its nature accepting and trusting where there is no clear answer. And where would I be without the faith God has given me? I need not think back too far to remember the years of disbelief, of agnostic wondering and the very real fear that I may be doomed. God took that way, through Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit's work in my heart. So, even without answers when I sometimes want them, I am grateful for the answers I have.
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2 comments:

Judy said...

Hello Sam,

Nice to meet you. Like you, I like to search for answers and get disappointed when I can't find them. But we need to trust God even when the answer isn't apparent. That's the tough part.

I have a question to ask: I stumbled upon your LinkedIn profile in my search for the right person to contact at Krames Staywell (MediMedia USA). I recently applied for the Senior Client Editor Position at Krames Staywell in the Yardley, PA, office. The link to that position is http://jobview.monster.com/Editor-Senior-Job-Yardley-PA-98248082.aspx. The job is also listed in the career section of MediMedia's website.

I sent my resume and cover letter via the company's database, however, I really want to send it directly to the hiring manager of that department. I contact Selby Bateman a few weeks ago and he gave me the name of the HR director in Yardley, but I haven't heard a word. I know that contacting you through your blog is a long shot and a very unconventional way of looking for a job, but would you happen to know who the hiring manager is in the Yardley office who is looking for a Senior Client Editor?

I have been a medical/health writer for more than 17 years, and I have worked closely with clients in custom publishing in my former position at Wolters Kluwer Health. So I would be perfect for the job. I am on LinkedIn as Judith Riddle. Thank you so much for your time and attention. As one fellow Christian to another, have a blessed Easter weekend.

Sincerely,
Judy

Sam said...

Hi Judy,
Thanks for your comment. As to the job, I'm afraid I'm not located in Yardley--I'm in the Greensboro, NC, office so I don't know who's who in the Yardley HR office. (Krames StayWell has a number of locations, just FYI.) I'll try to find out for you.
Hope you have a blessed Easter day, as well.
Sam